On One Hand

June 2, 2006

Filed under: Uncategorized — ononehand @ 8:27 pm

I started running today. I was sitting at home crying a little, feeling all kinds of ache, and I didn’t want that anymore. I wouldn’t fucking have it. So I ran. I just changed clothes as quickly as I could and bolted down the street. Since I just had heart problems so recently I didn’t think I could go very far, but I surprised myself: I ran from 30th and Aurora to Broadway and University and then back to Norlin before I walked the rest of the way home.

Whenever I exercize, I get a strange feeling that I am extremely attractive. It happens once my heart starts pumping fast and stops a few minutes after I slow down. I take off my shirt, because it feels good and because I am no longer modest and I don’t care who looks at me. I get a rush whenever I see a pretty girl or pair of guys walking down the street, and run a little faster as I pass. Intellectually, I know that I’m stick thin and pale as mashed potatoes, but while that goes on in my mind my body says, fucking look at me, bitches!

Having an excersize routine separates the different parts of the day: when I’m awake, I’m awake. When I’m asleep, I’m asleep. There is no blurry in-between that hits me whenever I’ve been sitting for more than five minutes. My appetite improves and anxiety fades from me. At the moment I am going to Taco Bell and will treat myself to a half-pound bean burrito.

If anyone runs regularly and wants to go with me, I’d be down to start a program. Mind you that you’d have to be pretty slow because I just started this. I could take off in the early morning, meet you at your place, and then we could run together somewhere. Remember that I tend not to follow through with programs I start, but I’d like to stick with this one, so hopefully you’ll talk me into it.



  1. I’m really glad you found something that kind of helps relieve everthing!

    Exercise helps me in a similar way. It’s really quite remarkable how it seems to put everything a little more in balance.

    Comment by matthewtroxel — June 3, 2006 @ 1:19 pm | Reply

    • haha, i was thinking about you when I read this entry.

      I’m right there with ya, too. Running makes me feel perfect.

      Comment by bradfordneal — June 14, 2006 @ 4:28 pm | Reply

  2. Running is bad on the joints. Maybe try something less high impact, like biking or walking?

    Comment by tempur_tempur — June 3, 2006 @ 6:57 pm | Reply

    • As long as you don’t have any major joint problems already, running can be perfectly fine.

      You just have to start slowly, stretch, wear the proper shoes, and fix small problems before they become big ones (by paying close attention to your body).

      My most recent joint overuse injury (a little hip tweak) came from biking. It’s all about picking what you like to do and learning how to do it safely.

      Comment by 477150n — June 4, 2006 @ 12:43 am | Reply

  3. Running

    Fuck all this joint talk. Get out there and run till it hurts then stop.

    Comment by Anonymous — June 4, 2006 @ 6:08 am | Reply

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