On One Hand

October 22, 2006

Photo Update

Filed under: Uncategorized — ononehand @ 5:57 pm

I try to add a few pictures here every now and then just to keep people aware of my constant evolution – absent infrequent updates I’d be misleading you all about my identity; you might all still think I’m still the 18-year-old bleach-blonde twink boy I was when I started this journal and first posted pictures, and those who thought that was cute then would perceive me so in error. But this entry is here mostly because I want to get as much leverage as possible out of the sexy in-the-shower photos I took with a friend when she was here a week ago to visit.

The first photo is, left to right: of Shannon, one of my three roommates; my friend Samantha who graduated from CU last spring but stayed with me for a week on a trip back to Colorado to visit; and myself. We are all slightly intoxicated on a Friday night, and being such, were incessant with the narcisistic photo-taking:

Shannon, Samantha, Me
Shannon, Sam, Me.

But drunken narcisism is no island in the continuous exhibitionism Sam and I share when we get together, and ostensibly decide that every minute detail of our lives must be immortalized in images that we can post online. Sam and I are of similar temperments when it comes to that- as Samantha would put it, we are “so gay” together. Photo diaries do not exclude activities that are mostly staged, such as photos of Sam and I getting in the shower together, which, absent a camera, we would never dream of doing:

Don't drop the soap
Don’t drop the soap.

Sort of like a drag show
Sort of like a drag show.

Not Amused
Not amused with whatever Sam is doing.

No comment.

I gained a lot of weight recently, in fact a total of 20 pounds this summer, and if you look at the photos from my previous photo entries you can tell. (Click on the tag “photos” at the bottom of this entry to easily bring up all photo entries.) Not that I’m not still skinny, but I’m pretty proud of how far I’ve come. I have an enormous head, hats rarely fit me, as you may be able to observe in the photos, so it takes a lot of body mass for me to look decently proportioned. Aside from the weight, I look pretty much the same as I did when I first grew the goatee two years ago. My most recent entry containing photos is of photos from about a year and a half ago, July 2005, after a trip to Hawaii. In Hawaii I am demonstrably thin.

Between the two most recent photo entries is an entire romantic relationship that lasted 8 months, descending to total disaster, a period in which I lost about 8 pounds. (I gained them back as part of the 20 I accumulated this summer.) So here you get to see a few of my friends, who will hopefully stick around for a long time, but when it comes to the boys – at least the ones that are currently out of my life – you will have to use your imaginations. It’s sort of funny, and sad, how a person can go from unknown to suddenly the most important person in your life, then descend to nobody-nes again because they disappear. Not that I ever wanted it that way, but most things that happened were out of my control. Clay and I never took a photo together until the night of my 21st birthday – right before he dumped me. As far as image evidence is concerned, he never existed. Meanwhile Samantha is pictured more frequently with me in photos than anyone my own family, making her, according to the crude and casual world of livejournal and facebook.com, the most important person in my life.

I still feel pretty weird about posting photos of myself here. When I was younger it wasn’t such a big deal, but I am more self-aware and that awarness includes that these entries might show tendencies of being self-absorbed, which is all to easy in the Internet-ridden world we live in. So how’s this for making me less self-absorbed – a few pictures of my friends, me not included, so you know who they are as well.

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YES! (I love this photo.)

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Yes, that is my hand. I just want to honor the fact that Shannon (my roommate) is fucking hot here.

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I have photos of Sam that are much better than this but I don’t want to appropriate something that I didn’t actually take, and this one has a kitchy, amature-snaptshot naturalistic appeal, so, lo.



  1. what kind of leverage are you trying to erect…erm…gain?
    Sorry, freudian slip there.

    Comment by pickupthepeices — October 23, 2006 @ 12:26 am | Reply

    • The uncanny allure of gay boys who appear straight. Especially considering that the girls with me in these photos are hot.

      Comment by ononehand — October 23, 2006 @ 12:34 am | Reply

  2. I have a pink tub too.

    Comment by 477150n — October 23, 2006 @ 12:37 am | Reply

  3. love the pics

    I’m curious about your necklaces – what they are

    Comment by jdhenchman — October 23, 2006 @ 2:32 am | Reply

    • When I was confirmed Catholic when I was 14, my aunt, who was my confirmation sponsor, gave me a Saint Christopher pendant. It fell off it’s chain when I was 18, and was lost. That night was, ironically, or maybe coincidentally, the first time in my life I ever got drunk, which was my first night in Boulder after moving out of my parents’ house for college. I still wear the chain even without its pendant because it is from my aunt and means something to me. My mom is superstitious and thinks a Saint Christopher pendant can actually protect someone, so she gave me a new Saint Christopher after I lost the old one and I still wear the one my mother gave me. Then my aunt (a different aunt) gave me an Aum symbol last Christmas, which is a Hindu holy symbol that represents universiality… sort of abstract and complicated, but I didn’t like having just one religion around my neck since I’m not Catholic. My aunt is sort of New-Age and I suppose she was as eager to get me something Eastern to challenge Christian Orthodoxy as I was eager to wear it. So ever since then I’ve worn all three necklaces, and I like how they look together, and I’m too lazy to ever take them off.

      Comment by ononehand — October 23, 2006 @ 7:50 am | Reply

  4. OMFG… you are a beautiful man…
    i just can’t stress this enough.
    and it looks like the weight is in the right places,
    i hope your not trying to say your big or fat or anything… because i will smack some sense into you. your just simply amazing!

    Comment by firstslowdance — October 23, 2006 @ 2:50 am | Reply

    • I’m not fat, lol… I’m trying to gain weight. I’ve never considered the possibility of losing weight, ever. I’m always trying to bump myself up a few pounds and reach 155.

      Comment by ononehand — October 23, 2006 @ 7:42 am | Reply

      • good for you, i’m proud of you.
        i’ve always been to conscious of my weight.
        i hate the fact that i am. but i can see that you are healthy looking and very attractive.

        Comment by firstslowdance — October 24, 2006 @ 7:58 pm

      • Thanks man. I’m actually conscious of my weight too, but in a different way. Gaining about ten pounds would be nice.

        Comment by ononehand — October 25, 2006 @ 5:36 am

  5. cute boys in bathubs all wrapped up in dreams, these are a few of my favourite things

    Comment by foucaultonacid — October 23, 2006 @ 4:11 am | Reply

  6. Lookin sexy as ever, man.

    Comment by not_a_freak — October 23, 2006 @ 5:38 am | Reply

  7. Looking good, and happy!!

    Comment by jennafern — October 23, 2006 @ 8:37 pm | Reply

  8. You do look like you’ve filled out a bit, compared to prior photos that you’ve posted.

    Comment by tempur_tempur — October 24, 2006 @ 11:39 pm | Reply

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