On One Hand

November 17, 2006


Filed under: Uncategorized — ononehand @ 1:12 am

Transience is when that off feeling rises in your gut, and you are malaised – but like the approaching onset of a fever it can’t be described – you just feel as though for three days you haven’t done anything but lay on the couch. And even though you don’t want sit there anymore, you don’t have the urge to do anything else. You’ve been there forever, if only just an hour, and you are antsy and your muscles ache. You adjust your back and raise your legs and put them down again and still you are uncomfortable. And nothing feels right and your clothes don’t feel right, so you’re stripping them off in the middle of the living room, not caring that your roommates could walk in at any time. The clothes lie in a sorry pile on the wooden floor and the TV is on. And you switch it off and on again, and then you lay down on the floor to do push-ups, for the warmth, do four, stop, then later six, and finally twenty, and you put on a movie but don’t watch it.

That is when a half a glass of wine knocks you back, even though you are usually the heaviest drinker in the group and manage to stay sober all the while. That is when you are thankful for the phoenomenon of sleep. Sometimes you when you are up all night, writing, talking, thinking in a chattery frenzy, you wish you could use all 24 hours of the day for work, lamenting that eventual exhaustion is the consequence of staying up too long. But these days there is nothing better to do than lay in bed forever, waiting for the dark, time-wasteful phase to pass.


1 Comment »

  1. This is exactly how I have become, as of late.

    Comment by timberwolves — November 17, 2006 @ 7:40 pm | Reply

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